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Friday, December 08, 2006

All I Am Mummeries mummeries
all pretense and show
Ceremony ceremony
Pass then flow
Take me by the hand
lead my way
make me understand
don't allow me to stray
if my mind were to wander
assume it can't be lost
give me the assumptions of our father
his path will i follow and shall not cross
mummeries mummeries
to and fro
prentense and ceremony set our faces aglow
lived or consumed
think and you assume
I am constant and do not waver
do me this disservice and grant one favor
pass this cup for your mead is without flavor
mummery devoured in violent feast
passion be lost, stripped, removed of me
in need of no eyes, our ears can see.


Friday, June 09, 2006

Currently Listening
Bayside
By Bayside
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Synonym For Acquiesce - BAYSIDE

Empty fields move me
So much more than rooms filled up with friends
(The way the trees look dead)
It reminds me that there's more to life than living
And maybe giving up's not bad
But part of letting go of you.

If i surrender to this feeling
Maybe all the aches and pains will go and i can close my eyes
Never again to have them open
'til i bleed out all I've been
I don't want to be alone no more
No more.

Take this razor sign your name across my wrists
So everyone will know who left me like this
Sew me up my scars run deep
A reminder not to forget the times that we've had.

Empty fields move me
So much more than rooms filled up with friends
(The way the trees look dead)
It reminds me that there's more to life than living
And maybe giving up's not bad
But part of letting go of you.

So take this razor sign your name across my wrists
So everyone will know who left me like this
Sew me up my scars run deep
A reminder not to forget the times that we've had.

Never waste another second
I have wasted so much time
And I have wasted, wasted
So much time
So much time

Take this razor sign your name across my wrists
So everyone will know who left me like this
Sew me up my scars run deep
A reminder not to forget the times that we've had.

 

 

 

Don't Call Me Peanut - Bayside

 

Drink up beautiful;
I spiked your cup with angst, and a heart attack.
'cause I've got so much trapped and it's all because of you.
So i figured you might like some back;

And when I see her i'll tell her whats been on my mind,
All these sleepless nights, she'll recite her excuses,
Put my tail between these legs of mine;
Like i do all the time

Can't live my life;
Knowing you'll be in his arms, each time I blink my eyes;
Know what goes on behind my back; every night.
Afraid I'll never leave; afraid i'll never know whats good for me

And when I see her i'll tell her whats been on my mind,
All these sleepless nights, she'll recite her excuses,
Put my tail between these legs of mine;
Like i do all the time

And now you say that; you say you love me.
Well i may have your heart, he has your body
And now you swear that; your being honest,
But you're not honest, you never could be

And when I see her i'll tell her whats been on my mind,
All these sleepless nights, she'll recite her excuses,
Put my tail between these legs of mine;
Like i do all the time



Friday, March 03, 2006

Currently Listening
Mad World
By Michael Andrews, Gary Jules

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- mad world
ok so its been a long time but i dont have anything to say! not anything that matters anyway...


Thursday, September 29, 2005

Currently Listening
Deja Entendu
By Brand New
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- play crack the sky, I will play my game beneat the spin light

 

What to make of onetwenty

 

Choking back the sharp hint

Seventy times in sixty

Twenty four in another

One hundred thousand and eight hundred dull thuds

Pangs and shudders felt below, behind contrived smiles

Muted all, twenty five milligrams at a time

Nights spent shivering

Days spent shivering

Cold and grey,

slowly slipping into and away

All of this through me

Around me

 From me

All the worlds’ a player and I am merely stage

Hollow pine rotting beneath the pressure of all the decay

Wishing to slip away unnoticed

Begging to be noticed all the same

Running together, it blots out

The glass slowly stains, chips, falls away

Seven more milligrams and seven more

Haze flows out

in the end, up and away

Till all heat is lost, till it fades

Dissipates, forgotten

Except that we know, it was there

The feeling the scent the burn in our eyes

 The constant choking back

One in to the other, seven and twenty-five

 Three thousand one hundred and fifty

Slowly counting, waiting,

Pulling, constricting,

Pessimists hope too, only for different ends to the same means

 

                                                   Torque


Wednesday, August 10, 2005

New Music: Anna Nalick

i have to give this girl some props she rocks by the way some say its pop but im sure her single is emo as it gets.

 

Just as an update, fuck shippensburg! they can keep their shit hole university and be lucky it doesnt burn down from all the fucking queer hippi pot heads, and the vodka soaked vomit covered halls fuck em they can keep that place. too bad i have a map to all of their servers and i know whole comp setup so fuck with me! the thing is i hated that school and tried to make it work but now im back to working full time and paying my way through community college to make ends meet the only difference is im making a shit load and i cant think of anything that i need i dont have, and sara has everything of mine too.  when school starts ill be an english major and be working on the second associates degree! so ha!  in two years ill have 3 degrees and be on the way law school. so if you wonder how im so bitter its because thats where all the fire comes from everythim one of you insignificant shits pisses me off it fuels the fire to burn your ass. soon as i thought it would all be smooth sailing someones throwing rocks into my pond, fine, you do that jus remeber the bigger the rock you throw the deeper the water gets till your waist deep and sinking !



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